Part 1
According to scientists, the feeling of sadness only lasts for 3 seconds.... why the hell would I allow it to consume my mind for a whole night? A few days? a week? Putting my soul under constant suffering. What is it doing to my age? My energy? The positive opportunies that await me? Only god knows.... or I do know. Its blocking everything, it blocks the energy to live a long life with a happy attitude, pathing your paths to success and glory.
Is it OK to be sad for a day? I mean, its only a day right. Wrong. It all counts. It all adds up, at the end, you wont even have the time to regret. Somewhere, in that day that you are sad, are so many things to be happy about it. The fact that you can get up and dance whenever you want. The fact that the sun is shining in your face. The fact that you are loved, so immensely. And the fact that you have a choice........
Happiness IS a choice. If you notice that you are unhappy with your work, or your relationship, these are all things that can be changed. Realise that you have the power to change and always will. And if it is a slow moving change, the inbetween bits of live can always be lived happily. It is YOUR choice.
Sometimes decisions are hard to make. I know that when your stuck in a whirl of sadness it is almost impossible to get yourself to do anything about it. It is almost like some sick addiction to the feeling. None of this sounds right, or even human but we still do it to ourselves. What are we looking for? And do most of turely want to change, or do they become comfortable because it is means they dont have to veer towards the unknown?
Im fighting, im fighting, im fighting. An endless battle, but I know that soon there will be moments, much better than this, there always have been and there always will be. Im not scared of what I have to lose or sacrafice, because they are both parts of life that you have to go through.
It does take a while to recover though, after youve been to very very dark places in your head. My heart acchess for sooooo long the next day and its very hard to put a brave smile on. but not impossible. Find all the possible resources to make you happy, and when the time is right, make the right decisions to make sure their are less chances of something like that happeneing again.
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Part 2
I think ive won the battle. Im in the middle of trying to change what I am not happy about. Ive been surrounded by friends. And ive done some hard manual labour. After clearing out all of the negativity in my head, I filled my soul with magic, by listening to music, reading the right words, and seeing new places. I feel revitalised. Like, whatever happens in the next week, I will be completely and utterly happy with.
Suffering is a part of human exsistence. I will not blame myself for what I put myself through, because absolutley everyone, suffers. Its the acceptance of this very fact, that it happens and it is a part of our lives whether we like it or not, is what opens up the path back to happiness and a state of peaceful well being. We all have the power of this acceptance. It is whether we actually want it or not that will decide on whether you will find a more permantant contentness. Good luck my friends, your happiness is in your hands.
