What do I do next?
Well I have recently come to a conclusion for this puzzling concept, and have decided to tell my personal story to you about how I have contently and successfully answered this question for myself, bringing peace to my life, in the hope that it helps you find the right answer for your own puzzle.
My Story
As a child, my Dad would always teach me that somethings happened because it was a magical force called 'Fate' and that we would just have to accept it. And that when we didn't know which decision to make, we should follow the signs that Fate has put in our life to follow, leading us on to the right path.
As you can imagine, I loved this concept as a young child. Life seemed so magically exciting and unexpected, like a big adventure awaited me and I couldn't wait to get involved and explore. However as I grew and my mind became more adult, I experienced things that made me feel such suffering that of course, I started questioning the existence of Destiny or Fate. I use to ask myself, 'If it was leading me to good things, why on earth am I feeling so much pain right now?' And so I started putting my own hands on the steering wheel and I tried to take control of the direction of my life, to swerve away from anymore pain or anything else that could hurt me. And, for a while, I thought it had worked. But I was wrong.
Recently, I went through a very particular experience, one that I have never been through before. And since its beginning, I can honestly tell you that I've had absolutely no control over my life. The steering wheel, which I thought I had a firm grip on, had been forcefully ripped from my own hands, and was steering itself. And what kind of experience can possibly do such a thing, I hear you ask?
Taking away the ability to walk. I am fortunate that the fracture in my ankle was small, but it still resulted in 4 weeks of not being able to go anywhere or do anything that you would normally have to go or want to do. To stay put within 4 walls with only your thoughts to accompany you, after some time, a very peculiar change begins to take shape inside of you. And I only realized the true essence of this during my healing process.
All of my perceptions changed. Not only the way I perceive things, but also the way I sense things, with all six of my senses.
Now I'm able to cook again, every mouthful of the food in which I make is full of flavour and an absolutely pleasure to eat.
Now I'm able to feel the sand between my toes, it feels so much softer.
Now I'm able to hear the sound of the sea, it makes me feel so much calmer.
Now I'm able to see the many stars in the sky, they seem so much brighter.
Now I'm able to walk from one end of the street to another on 2 feet, an unstoppable smile is always brought to me face.
And now I'm able to feel a real genuine smile again, it sparks more intensely in my heart, making it ultimately more contagious.
In fact, everything around me feels brighter, more intense and I can feel a power on this Earth that I never knew existed before. My instincts have also become more in tune, and scarily accurate.
It's made me suddenly become more drawn to Nature. To watch a flower in the wind, just being, just existing, can suddenly obliterate every negative thought or feeling that's inside of me.
I'm filled with this new appreciation. A revitalized energy. And all because of an experience I had in which I had NO control. No say. No interference.
Do we all have moments in our lives of which we have no control? Even if your answer is yes, there is one experience, in which we have all been through that was completely guided for us. And that's the first 9 months of your existence, within your mothers womb. Within those 9 months, EVERYTHING is provided for you to live, to survive and to grow. Destiny's hand guides us through until the very moment of your conception. And what about afterwards? Your life on Earth has begun, why would you ever think that at that point, Destiny would loosen it's grip?
Because all of the conditioning and brainwashing that the mind goes through as we grow up in this society, over time, results in the complete denial of Destiny's existence.
I can honestly say now with all the truth of my heart, that even after the ability of walking was taken away from me, Destiny NEVER let go of my hand. The happiness I feel with my new founded perception is not something I can fully describe in words. And as long as I follow it's guidance and look for it's signs, removing the social conditioning that has poisoned our minds, it will only lead me to a life brimming with love, light and a fulfillment in which we are ALL entitled to feel, as beings within this universe, in all it's miraculous entirety.
Now breath in and let go of the negative energy, the problems, the worries, the identities in your mind and the misconception of your hands on that steering wheel. In fact, stop thinking completely, reduce the mental noise inside your heard, and just feel. Just be here, and now. And all of a sudden you will soon start to feel the tug of Destiny's calling, pulling you towards the path made only for you. And you will know exactly what to do next........
