No Pain, No Gain

Recently Ive been sent through a whirlwind of physical pain. Starting with the teeth, they say its the worst pain in the body as its nerves are closest to the brain. Waves of migrane, not being able to sleep, look at bright lights, feeling sick when ever I moved, then having to do a very loud bar shift full of drunk people and an irish band who were amazing but were making my headbang with every beat they played. After this ordeal started to calm down, the weakest part of my body decided to give in again, resulting in not being able to walk, and even lying down with my legs up, the pain was throbbing up and down my foot stopping me sleeping but still having to do alot of hard physical work for work the next day.

Looking back it on it now, it was probably one of the most difficult working days of my entire life. It was literally a struggle to walk, so everything else I was doing for 7 hours on top of that was nearly impossible. I hadnt had chance to rest my ankle, and I could feel every step I took my body was resisting, telling me to stop

Through this 1 week of turmoil, where there wasnt really a minute I wasnt in pain, I did alot of thinking. My philosophy that everything happens for a reason was weakening - Id recently helped out quite alot of people and couldnt think of one bad thing that I had done to be punished in such a way. Usually I figure it out and helps me direct myself and my life again, but this time there was nothing to justify it.

Then I started thinking, if everything happens for a reason and good and bad are figments of our imagination, then why can I not turn this situation into it happening for a good reason? Why cant pain be good? Ive heard people say pain is good, because it means the body is working hard to fix itself, but Im not sure about that theory.

So I changed my perspective. What did pain actually do for my mind? Well when Im in pain, its all I seem to think about. All my thoughts were directed towards it, hoping it would stop soon, what I can do to get rid of it, the levels of pain ect..

I found that pain was actually very grounding. It took my mind off the past, the future, and it made me concentrate on whats happening now,  living for the present moment. And I realised how healthy that actually is. And we all know The Power Of Now (the book that took me out of depression a year ago).

So I am grateful for it. For one week my mind has not been poisened with the past and future thoughts that destroy us all slowly and leads to stress and our eventual downfall.

Because of my 1 week of pain, Ive prolonged my beautiful life. Next time your in pain, this attitude will cause you absolutly no harm to implement :)

The Power Of Now is The Present. Open it!

Never feel like your at home anywhere? Heres a differerent way of thinking about it :)

Casa Dolce Casa

North, East, South, West

Which feels right? Which feels best?

To the highest mountain

or the warmest seas

I look for home

But not with ease

The place of my birth

Full of familiarity

Does not feel like my home

With its layers of memories

An exotic country

What im most fond of

Doesn't contain the feeling

Of peace, of hope, of Love

Thats when I realise

That 'home' is not fixed

Its not found around me

It has no door or bricks

Its the inner emotions

When inside your embrace

Enclosed in your soul

Lost in Time, In space

Peace is in your presence

Comfort in the love you provide

My home is where my heart is

And my heart never leaves your side

REMINDER: Dont ever forget the power of love

With me without me

When I gaze into the starry sky at night

Contemplating the galaxy's delight

Its then that I catch the scent of your hair

and feel your embrace, holding me tight.

Walking along the stony shore clearing my thoughts

in a cold but calming sea side town

I suddenly sense your warm hand inside mine

Hearing your voice a precious, soothing sound

When I wrap myself inside my bed at night

Only the smell of your clothes accompany me

I long for your feet to rub mine gently

Filling a heart that craves your affection deeply

Forgive me my treasure, for my bitter thoughts that make no vital sense

Its soley because the love and compassion that I possess for you is so immense

So whatever it is that I do in my life, I will always know that this much is clear

Everywhere I go, I'm uplifted by the power of your presence, for you are always near.

Forever with me, my dear.