The world is my playground.......please tell me its playtime soon :d

Routine. One of those things that you only realise how much it actually sucks, when your stuck in it and you can get out .... which sucks even more.

Ive recently been in this situation and it has been driving me crazy. Like, to the point where i can feel my head mentally reject it. it almost feels like, to wake up and do the same things everyday is completely unnatural, just wrong in every sense of the word.

Just like.... a machine. Yep theres definitely something robotic about it. But its not enough just to exist. we are not robots, we are flesh and blood, body and mind, and most importantly heart and soul. these two things in particular for me are the things that need fulfilling. and just existing, going through every day life.......just doesnt cut it.

we need to live and its change, its excitement, its doing the things you love instead of doing the things you feel like you MUST do, its being different, its being random, its being spectacularly spontaneous that really, hits that nail on the hammer..... of life.... lol

and whats a bonus is the memories that come out of living life like described above, they can be treasured. and used as a bright light in your life, in desperate dark times of need.

So if anybody ever wondered why I like maybe one too many parties, why, especially after a few, i need to do something crazy like jumping a few garden walls, jumping into a few seas at 2am, messing around with trolleys (because even nights out get a bit monotonous). if some have ever thought, why would i go off randomly travelling europe while trying to study, with no money to do so, and no help financially. and if some ever think, why i dye my hair a different colour so often.

well the answer is, im living. im expressing the passion i have for this life that has been given to me and exploring what it can provide for me. I may have a slight reputation for  being crazy, but many times ive heard people say, with you maria, i had an adventure. i remember that and this and i think about it alot. and to know that ive had a positive impact on peoples life that, is well, very inspiring for me.

So next time, your having a fairly normal day, just do something weird. dont have to be crazy, or big, or life threatening. just different. make that day a little more memorable then the one before or the one that will come. because you never know when these memories will be needed to dig you out of a black hole you may stumble in and have trouble escaping. it could just be the rope you need to pull you out of danger.

or the distraction you need for something you want to forget, but thats another story ;)